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If freedom really exists, I wouldn't be who i really am now.	Friday, November 20, 10:02 PM Bestfriend How long have we not been contacting each other? How long have i not heard your voice? How long had we never meet and had a proper conversation? I guess its nearly a month. Things are different now. Its actually sad not to hear from you and not approaching you for long due to some shyts. Life is different now. It seems like we're doing our own things. Where are you dear? Do you know how much i misses you? Im so sorry if i've been too busy with work, school, life. It's very difficult for me now. I've seen what i need to do in life to make things better. Things at home are getting worst too. I still need you by my side and talk and to motivate. I miss alot from you n so are you. Where's our laughters gone? Im wondering how are you doing and im so sorry i cant be there by your side when you're not okay. Everytime i tried calling you, it seems like i can't get through. Im glad there's someone there for you and loves you from his heart. Being able to really takes good care of you. Make you and seeing you loving him too. Im happy seeing you happy. I hate listening to your voice and having us to tears cause of misses. I hope we'll meet again soon. I can't wait to jump onto you HUG you KISS you and say... I MISS YOU SO MUCH HAIRAH!!!! Thursday, November 5, 10:59 PM Finding myself I've to be truth to myself. Im making myself confuse. Let me try to be straight to myself and try speaking things out. I don't know whats wrong with me again. It sucks when i kept saying i don't know and really meaning it that i really don't know why. I just hate how things are going now. Works and schools are simply sucks! I know im pushing myself each day. Having the feeling of exhaustion is fucking annoying and irritating. My back and my legs are fucking hurting me more. Even after i get a long rest for myself, it still hurts like shyt! I do wish to sleep longer and i really do need a long rest..but sometimes my dreams are all affecting me. Everyday, i seem to force myself to be awake from my sleep and draging myself to face my world of tormented reality. Argghhh... Whatever it is, life still do have to go on. I just need to know how to control my own life. Control on what i want and what i need. Maybe i gonna stop working for the mean time while im having my school attachments. It seems like i couldn't handle 2 jobs at a time. Or i'll only take those Saturdays and rest on sundays. I really need to concerntrate on my school. Haixx...damn irritaing! and again about myself that i hated...since after i start working, i seem to start drinking again. Which im already heavy with that damn ciggies. And also getting high while working. Hah! Fucking Shyt ah Dee! I've got to find myself back..i really need to. Maybe i know how, but that's if i dare and if im strong enough. It's also for my own good but im just too soft hearted. How am i gonna be firm in my own life. The only way is..i just need to be alone. To be left all alone. Think about myself. Lock myself in my room to get a PROPER LONG LONG rest. This is also not a fucking emotional way eh.. Hmm....... Thursday, October 15, 11:11 PM Not Myself It has all turned different now. I don't feel im being myself. I mean, being in a different surrounding when it's not suppose to be where i am, when i hated it so much. I don't step my feets to clubs. I don't dance on their songs. It seem like im doing it now. Not because i want, cause i have to. Cause im working at that kind of atmosphere. Speechless huhh.... Im somesort happy geting to work and earn for myself. Its just one thing, Feeling awkward! I hate the night i don't know why but im somehow enjoying while hating it at the same time. Its kinda sucks being at a place you hated so much. Lucky this place is outdoor. I could also do wonders while working when the night cames. Wondering why the hell im here for, with this music...?! I can't deny but working there was fun. Really fun. It damn weird when suddenly i don't feel im myself. Am i really doing what im doing? Heehehe! WTH. But its ok, cause im glad enough that dear Fiz is around. At least i don't really feel left out. All the other stuff are the "Night Life" people but im not man! Im more for the Gigs. Drums and Guitar! Moshpits but not Dancefloor. Hehehhe! WTH Diana! Friday, October 9, 11:40 PM Fly Away Days passes by so fast. Choices had not been made. Things seems to drag for so long & now it's time to make things right in life. It was me, that kept draging this situations. Me myself being so stubborn saying that im strong enough. 1 year plus had pass but im still able to tolerate things and be patience. As for now, i don't think i could hold any more longer. Nothing seems to happen in life about me with you. You've not tried your best too and you don't seems to bother. I've tried finding ways for things to be better but nothing seems to work. Its just awkward. It kept we wonder too much. Hairah and lil bro knows what's happening. They had gave me lots of advices. Same goes with Fiz. What they say is true after all. As for Fiz, he's just some one i find special too. He brings all sense out from me. Maybe he is something. He makes me think of myself about my life and future. We think really far. We communicate so much and its all useful. Questions are all running in mind. Answers are all told out. There's nothing much left to hide fron Fiz. I did share with him alot more. I felt really comfirtable being able to cry by his side. It's just about me now. Im just not strong to fly away. I think for you more then i think for myself. Why am i so afraid to make my own choice. Everyday seem like a "Wall Day" fo us. Your words could bury me deep in the grave. I'll rather die then suffer. -Fly away Dee - Wednesday, September 30, 9:08 PM Raye Celebratiooon Lets talk about this Common Topic, which is Raye Celeb. First Day I wasnt feeling excited at all, i don't know why. Damn lazy you know! Hehehe! I just wear what mum told me to. I don't even feeling like grooming myself properly, i mean in malay, Cantek2 ah. Hehehe! I was kinda busy with my lappy. I was still online even after grooming. The top picture there, im with my LIL BRO EH! NOT BIG BRO.Hehehe! Sempat kite web-cammy. :) Then normal things happen, like forgiveness to the Elderly. EH! HAHA! I mean...you know what i mean k. Heeee! First House! It was my granny at my dad's side at Ang Mo Kio. Nothing much happen..Granny cook, we eat..then im sleepy. I slept at the sofa. HAHAHAHA.!! Haaiyooo DIANA! Hee! Then their relatives came, we proceed to my another granny's house at Chua Chu Kang. Second House! The weather damn hot man! I went there by motorbike with my Big brother cause my Lil brother's hand were hurt. Me with that "Baju Kurong" ride the bike?? Waaah, i really cannot take it. Rimas! Hehe! When reached, all i want is to REST! Dying to search for the fan! But too much people, its ok then. I understand. Then all of us watch "Gegebo" together. A Malay Ghost Prank movie. Haha! Funneey! You guys must watch! Heehe! After all that.... Standard AH!!! CAM-WHORING!! Second Day " I WAS DEAD ON MY BED!! "		thedeceptionist Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt. It's all about myself in this Shyt Life. All about Freedom and being Comfirtable of Me. Being who I Really am without being Control or Restrict. Being able to Socialize with Anyone and Everyone. Stubborn was born together with me. Rebel if Restricted. I live the way I live and Mum had set me Free. Mum says, " Is to Love is to let go ". Don't get it, ASK ME. Tattoo and Piercing are my Kind. They are Arts and Stories of Life. If I could have them in reality, Tattooes of mine, will be full of my Life Stories, My Past , My Present and also My Sweet Memorise. People Come and Go in Life. That's why, it's all about Yourself. If you die, you'll die alone. If you live, you don't live Forever. There's also some people that i mix with. Those people are someone that whom im confirtable being with. They are people that have some limits. They give Laughters and Smile to me. They are my Kind of Society. STILL NOT DONE YET!!		partnersincrime Dee Friendster Dee Dashboard Moronic Brat! 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